Tired man after work but just can't zZz ..and i m talking to alegria becus of she missing her mr P. hahas over the fone while typeing this lols guess i really bored n sadded my hamster died yesterday 10 april... hais i m thinking of you mans "where you go? i miss you so x_x, seems lyk it's been forever that you been Gone~~ how do i breathe without you here by my side ? i thought that you would be mine , but guess the joke was on me , i miss you so bad that i can't sleep , i wish i knew where you could be...another day has gone , i m still alone , how could this be ? you are not here with me... you are not alone , i m here with you~ thou you far away i m here to stay ..

I'll be your love I'll never make you feel, feel alone If yesterday blindfolds your eyes I'll bring you tomorrow
There's a time You feel like you're lost Feel the night will never end Through the daybreak It's hard to hold on But there is tomorrow Brings you to your senses
As the sun will make it's way
You'll make it there To the place where reality and dreams
And love will be together I'll keep the light from fading If the clouds blind your way
And the wind sways your faith
Let me see you smile
Don't you cry Over the past
Some days might be gray And dreary
Not easy to leave To leave it behind
'Til the rain stops in silence I'll be there to hold your heart
I'll be with you 'Til you find the reason for love
We take it for granted
We'll keep the time from fading ''cause the world is here to stay Your hope is deeper than pain~~
If you would believe ,Believe in the world
A vision of love And the strength inside your heart
You'll find a way I'll be your love, I'll be your light I'll never make you feel, feel alone If yesterday blindfolds your eyes I'll bring you tomorrow I'll be your love, I'll be your light I'll never make you feel, feel alone

my favourite song.. too bored so jus listen to some songs... hais...

SEcond day of work.

Yesterday was the first day of work . hahas shiok man im working with'alegria faith' thats sivakami.. we reallly lyk one bloody joker laa... uniform anyhow wear hahas and hoho they help us take our staff food n thats really alot n very nice of dem hahas . later in the evening she was posted to be in the airconditional place , while i was at the main hall outside serving 100 + Turkish people at one shot blah blah blah wa lan we get the same pay but i work so much more. work till i having headache sia still must keep working.. hais..

the stupid china manager keep touching me wtf sia break his hands man.anyway he is quite nice to me too hmmm~=p .working outside may be tiring but i enjoyed very much all the people there is so much more beta than ROMANKAN YOkohama fucking place to work everyone so fucking KPO fuck dem man..

this whole week will be woking from 3~11 pm wow chiong man... lols alegria jia you! meeting alegria at 1 pm later hope i wont be late =S hahahahas... hais got to buy shoes n pants.. sian... gonna waste money again..

second day of work gonna start soon..=D Have A Nice Day! woohoo

i M hanging On.

few days back ,woke up bout 7 plus , cus meeting my frend 830 at amk to play BBALL hahas woots... i lyk playing bball , never get to play for 2-3 yrs le . At last yesterday touch on that bloody long lost ball.sweee.. =DD oh n i late for the meet up again hahas oOps my frend really buay tahan me le ... meet 830 , i reach bout 915 lols aways late ms late. =)



than we started playing at 930 to 12 plus the sun damn hot man make me look lyk ang ku gui=,= hais play halfway injured myself damn the stupid guy bang me... my knee bleed starting no feeling sia still can contiune play lols feels so good to play bball again at last we won.. yay!! =DD



But i feel lyk shyt damn pain laahh... i so pain still must go clarke quay interview worst is cant even find the place la.. wadevea UE SQ #03-16 !! make me find you so long.. arghgh...



my leg so pain still brought him the belt buckle hais really felt lyk idiot , he dont even care about me only think of his ex gf .hais hais...

ENd of Our Love story

The feelings just can't come back anymore.

the words that you have force me to say on wed , i won't take it back. jolly well keep it in mind . The letter you have wrote to me , i m touched but once again keep it as memories den. if you still wanna put blames on me , betta put till you hate me to the core and don't come back find me . but don't forget the person who causes tis ending is you. april 9th is our one year le i will aways remember tis day.

hope you will find someone better than me bah. i m disappointed n tired le . so sorry that i just can't get back that feeling.Just move on with life bah is beta for both of us.

tis will be the last update bout you 'ronnie' next tyme you wont see yourself here i will move on. our story have come to an end if fate brings us together again , that will be our second chance again but for now just get use to our normal life.

now that you have become a better person , from someone who use to drink , gamble , smoke , live life so aimlessly , only know how to take money from parents to someone who knows how to love your own life and to earn your own money.. all this things i have been thru with you i will remember for life..now that we are not together i hope you wont throw away all my efforts of changing you .i had really a hard tyme changing you , and really put in alot of my tyme ..so pls .. contiune to live life well. next tyme when i see you i want to see someone with a good life . when i was with you , the thing you could only afford is onli lilipops but i still go with you at last going to one year le becus of stupid things you wan break lols i m a human not a sex machine . i say dont wan sex means dont wan.. becus of tis wan break i forever will remember wad you have said to me. my heart for you had died off the moment you say those things to me.

so do not regret what you have done.

now i going meet xiuzhen le guess me and xiuzhen's fate quite the same lols .
so contiune some other tyme need some air to breathe.
=]

left alone, so alone.

today is the first tyme i m writing in here .

heart hurts , felt it bleeding wana share with someone , no one care , no one's there for me.
would you leave for someone you could love , or stay with someone who loves you but you have hurt feelings.

yesterday he came to find me and at first we talk things out in a nicer manner. i m touch by the way he loved me but the hurt in my heart needs tyme to heal , i try to tel him i needed some tyme to sort things out but he was lyk rushing me for answers ..and he's like trying to push all the blame to me, why all guys are lyk tat when they are the cause of the problem.

i guess i had enough n i m tired.so tired.he jus keeps pushing everything to me damm. after i went home , i felt lyk crying but no one knows how i m feeling.

so i called timothy wanted to talk to him, but is lyk he didnt even give a damm of what i m trying to say ..he was out wif his frends but cant he jus give me a few mins jus to tel him smthing serious ,he jus pass his fone to his friend and his frend say to me "can you pls dont disturb him first " than jus hang up the fone and timothy didnt even bother to call back..fuck man i felt lyk a fool a rubbish a wadevea damn.

timothy is a guy that i had loved after my ex tat i once could love so much ignatius but i guess i m jus doing one sided love den. hais fine man. really freaking tired . so hard for me to love someone but always ended up the same shyt why.,what have i done wrong i dont understand..

maybe i shouldn't love.